YES

Life waited and missed me and nw I am running towards it and…….realised I m not running towards
it..but together we are running in the world.

Just plunge in life

I wil do everything that I want to do

I will sing lloudly

I will take care of my body and be perfect. Be fit

I wil be loving and caring

I wil make me self esteem stronger and strongest

Compassion and viveak buddhi will be my mates all the time whrever I go

I wil give address….will create all the realities from my dreams. Dream of travel of infecting the world
with love ….. of swimming in some natural pond….of flying in sky doing paragliding and jumping off the
plane..evrything I will do.

Yessssssssssssssssssssssss I am living

So lets look at the tasks to be done. Hmmm congratualations…. Ur netbook is done…sort……and so is ur
camera. Ur hard disk from which the data is out..is lying at ahmedabad..storing many music and films. So
right now focus on systemmmmmmmmmmmmm

Haassshh feels good…all the back up to be taken is in system…finally…not lying in different places…so
I wil go on sorting…….ummm something to learn from maulik..delete 9 photos out of 10…..and keep
one..right now I can do till 4 -5 out of 10. Have started deletingthe blurred ones n all..earlier I used to
make a separate folder for hazy ones…blurr ones…always thought to make a story out of it…..it has been
with me since old days when I used to use role camera…..yes reminds me…..got to collect my lens from
Hyderabad…hmmmmmmm wil do wil do…..

So….. the system wil get cleaning now. Focus is there. And yeahhh something passed my mind
while I was sleeping……I am sittign at home….why not take back up of all contacts…back up in hard
copy…ahh yeah yeah..m still old school types can say…but ideas like..what if whole internet in the world
collapse…or for that matter..what if electricity vanishes…..ahhh yeahhh some other form would take its
place..still for now I m keeping hard copies too. This takes me back to the old rags of torned out pages
where I scribbled poems…… so let me create a file. A neat pile up…compilation of peoms… and then we
will think about those rags……… I am still on bed rest for 15 days for sure……. And the ngradually doc wil
get me into gradual process of harder stretches and bending downs and all. Whatever done is done……. I
have to move forward. People loosing their limbs or even after getting completely paralysed…do thighns
which are impossible seeming at first sight. Like the person from man v/s wild……. So…back is not such
an issue….. it is getting better. There is no pain. I am strong. My family is supporting me. My boyfriend
is loving and caring and accommodative…so whts the cry about??? Yeah I know…….its my own inner cry
from ignorant self…..thik hai…….no issues…..it cried..playued its part….and now there is gona be another
cry……………………..yuhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu of joy………………..cry of pain is taking a back seat
and better it leaves the session as now there is gona b yelling n shoutings n big screams..of pure joy and
excitement……….i am filling my life with all that is good……..samar said there is not hing that is evil……..i
say…evil is just the shadow of the good……..the thing that don’t exist…but that is in darkness….ahhh
whatever……putting philosophy aside…………………………….m gona rock on now…

So……lets go through the 100 thing list which I created with falguni….whn m keying it all in
…..somewhere ……………..i hv this secret thought tht may b I m gona send this to her……………….so
in case u r reading it………….or for that matter..anyone who is reading this…………………..trust me its
coming very instinctively….. n I want everyone who reads it to just gooooooooooooooo n plunge
in…………………………………….. life cant wait further for u……………………..it misses u………………………….it loves
u…………………n now u just gotta go n hug it……………just get up………….do what u want to do……………….u
wana travel…………..u wana work out on ur body??????????? U wana help ur parents………………. U
wana…………..do so many things….u know it all in ur head to reach on that 100th floor of the building
where lies the first step……………..take that step…………..plunge in…………………

For me………………….. riding……………………..!! hmmmm may be I didn’t ever let the energy flow. Forget
about the back ache..but I think…ever since the riding things started happening in my life….i always had
that issue of connection…that while riding…would I be able to connect to people?? As nachi said……. If
I m on my own….i can just…take lifts..bne more dependent on people…n that would open up my own
self for help…n open up to the whle world….but if I m on my own on bike…..it doesn’t help me much
to open up. I m very much self dependent on road…. I m stronger.. I m more self reliable.. I m more a
wanderor..and not a seeker…. N somehow the role of seeker has always attracted me…coz the surprises

that I have got at the end of all journeyers are beyond what words can express.. so this bike being
a “metal” thing always stayed on my mind.

Lets talk about bullets. Even before bullets..i have loved riding..from childhood. In school time chirag
n kamlesh n shamsher n whole gang used to come n we used to go out biking long distances. I was
what??? 15…16 years old at that time…..even later…with my darling active…I have been riding
long..longer distances… alibaugh..n in navi Mumbai..discovered so many spots…..palm beach road..nerul
lake..the abandonded fort….. the dried broken tree at the bank of pond..and many such places……..so
riding has been not new…. There were days in october where I took my active and travelled 150 kms
in wilderness of kutch..stayed around hajipeer for 10 days….listening to religious discourse in morning
and in afternoons……..loitered around the land…….off roading and everything..so this riding thing is not
really new……

Now with bullet…it all just gets highlighted. The spirit of riding. The spirit of being on road…of riding.
Someone asked me..why bullet. What makes it special……………….. well..i said…………………………u got to
ride it to feel it…………………..n may be I haven’t rode much bikes…but the feeling that bullet gave me..no
other bike ever gave me..its more about the spirit…that binds all together….

So first..i got to let the enegies flow…I lo ve the name urja……….n for that..i have to let this resistance of
riding as a concept pass by my mind……. Duniya ma evu ghanu badhu hoy chhe…je aapde modhe kadach
ninda karta hashu..pan andar thi aapde teni saraahna kariye chhiye..tene prem kariye chhiye….ane
kadach..like in my case of bikes as metals…n the question..the ambivalency to take it as a tool or
companion or not..is so open……..tht I like it and not.. I would be strong with it and not….. and this is
what makes it perfect to call it as love n hate relationship. Tej prem sacho chhe jyan thoduk dard pan
hoy ane gusso pan hoy…….faqt prem hoy…….ane jaray kai evil n ahoy…te to bahuj divine thai jay……bija
nu to khabar nahi..pan hu tyan nathi pahunchi ke faqt prem kari shaku…….. so I m realizing when m
feeling jealopus or irritated…………………………………………that its actually my love……………..and when I am
surrendering to love…………………………………trust me……………………nothing remains……………………….love
takes care of everything then. I just got to say…………………..alrightb uddy…………… here u are………….my
hands are up…………………………..take care of me n everything………….and this love…………this
god……………these angels……………….these Krishna………….this emotion ………………………….call it
whatever……this energy wil take care of u………………………..n its so overwhelming…..its just to be called
upon. Khali ek nani pokar……ane pratiskha……ane vishwaas…..

Ek prarthna karo…pachi pokar karo……ane aave teni pratiskha karo…………….haaa…potanu prurusharth
pan chalu rkho……this is what bapu said …..he mentions it many a times…….. its true….god helps
those who helps themselves…..6th standard ma vanchelu..pan ketlu sachu chhe. Elizabeth gilbert….the
aurhtoer of eat pray and love wrote in the book…

Once there was a man….who daily went to church n prayed in front of jesus……oh lord..please
help me..please let me win the ticket of lottery…….every day he would go n pray in front of
jesus………………….this went on n on…………n everyday his prayers became more intense and
desperate….till one day..jesus became alive and said… “ oh my child…please I pray…go n buy the ticket
first” this is what happens…we keep praying for things but we don’t do anything about it. Like….this
guy atleast should have bought the ticket……rest god was going to perform his work..but no…we want
miracles. Forget about others. Let me talk about my own self here. I want to travel the world. One wish.
Simple wish. I mean..i know how complicated it is. But lets just put it in one line. I want to travel.

So? Whats gona happen???is someone..like Thomas cook executive is going to come to me with
all the tickets..or some international pass n hand it over to me…that common twinke..here u
are………go n travel the world???? Is some bank going to come to me and say…here is all the
fund u need……go n travel n we would back u up……… no!! I got to do something about it. Yeah
to some level its possible. Like ma would say…go beta….go n travel…..n thts happening in small
packets…….. like friends would come up n we go n travel…n yes that’s happening too…so instead of
cribbing……….why not realize its happening in small packets…n for making it more scalable..i got to do
something……………………………ANYTHING!!

Like kaustubh gave my number for interviews…………….n again I blocked energies saying…. I have not
been riding bullet!! N he said……..yeahh but u have been riding….n travelling …so just take it up.. n the
interview happened. Many such calls came. Like I got hesistant when anu wanted to write bout karavaan
in magazine n wanted to use photos….what did I do……………I chickened out.why? coz I didn’t like the
idea that without travelling she is writing travelogue with my help…………………..BUT WHY NOT EMBRACE
THE OPPORTUNITY. Take it positively. I should have simply helped her out with details…n made sme
points that no one else could have given her. Caravans name would have been out on some travelogue
which gets published nationally along with my number. So basically……am calling for a prayer to god… I
want to travel..but not buying tickets. So whats to be done? Buy tickets…more tickets n thereby increase
my chances of winning the lottery.

So what does this buying the tickets mean??? That I work out on my body.. imagine…what do u expect.
With 85 kilos..n such sulking mood n attitude……who is going to come n talk to u??/ is someone
going to come n ask u to join in world tour. But instead……just how about this? That…………… I am
fit…… 60 kilos…good strong muscles and strength in totality. Calm … polite nature….resourceful i.e.
languages etc. if I start gaining on riding experience……learn bout its mechanics visiting garage daily…….
Understand deeply about cultures of the world….. start sharing my travel stories and photos with
all…..and enjoy the process………now this is what I call………………………..effective!! and If I become
effective……offcourse world will respond. The cosmos will respond coz…………………………… cosmos
would see me walking in some direction n it would start producing things n presenting it to me..through

situation …people…moments…..but right now..poor universe……..mara thi confuse thai gayu chhe…ke
chhokri ne karvu su chhe????? Hhahahhahaaaa

So girl…stop being so stoned…………………………and get onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn alright…………I
am happy right now………..n enjoying this thing called life………. Yup yup..still stagnant…gota walk the
talk. N it happens with small little things. Reminds me of falguni….she went to bhuj in the beginning of
the year..n bought datun. One small little thing…..but I felt so amazing…if we really want..we can do
it……….if we are not getting things that we want..its just because we are not wanting it. Its as simple
as that. If we really want something..we really would be putting our effort to make it true. Take any
success stories…….one thing is common…they really really really wanted it…….n take any story that
is close to success…they wold have put effort n al….but kyank kai kami rahi gayi hati..n that kami is
nothing but..lack of spirit somewhere……………..no issues……………..its ok. This is life. This is society..we
get entangled in things that we have to do playing our roles socially..as daughter or as wife or as son
etc etc…….but common……………….the process itself is so beautiful isn’t it?? N there is nothing like
a final destination………..how it can be? If one destination is reached…there is sure another journey
waiting for us…if world is seen…the moon is there..n if moon is reached..whole cosmos is there..n by
the time human kind reaches till the edge of universe…..i m sure…there would be some new species
instead of human beings that would have taken over the planet. So we are living in this ever edxpanding
universe…n this human form itself is so negligible that what to talk bout this small little babes twinkle.
Yes…..gotta spark for a while….n that’s about it…..give reason to my existence…play my role..n then
another role awaits…so lets make it grand..lets make everyone realize that its all beautiful………….lets
doooooooooooo ittttttttttttttttt